Before Photos -- oh my giddy aunt

I have to take the dreaded before photos and I am avoiding it.

I have spent the last 10 years (at least) avoiding the camera.  Even when I was a normal weight I had a huge problem with my body image.  I think this was partly a reaction to my long time school BF being Miss Bay of Island or some such title the summer she left school..  -- I did not choose my friends wisely -- I still don't.  All my friends are beautiful, even the ones who want to lose a bit of weight have beautiful faces/skin and are nice people inside.
I need to find a friend who is meaner and uglier than me ---probably a hard challenge -- LOL

The more I am writing about this the more I am starting to want to give up and go to the fridge --- mmm -- need to talk to psyco about this---------bleuuuccchh

But I will take those photos,  but maybe I am not ready to see them yet.  I may want see them when I can look back at the person I was -- not the person I am.

All a bit deep--

As Dawn French says -- if we lived at the time of Rueben and the other painters of that time I would be a Supermodel, and Kate Moss would be the brush.............