Dreams

So -- today I went to the psyco and she is supportive -- and again to my GP to get the Barium meal and blood test paperwork. We have until 15th Oct before we see Ian Baxter (surgeon) as he is away on leave at the mo. When booking our appointments FFBB was told by the receptionist to get as much of the pre-tests done as possible so we can pretty much book in as soon as poss.

Last night I had a dream about not being able to have the lap band surgery done until I had completely coloured in some wallpaper -- with miniature pizzas all over it. And by the time I was nearly finished (quite a night!!) I had changed my mind so said to the doc that my pens had run out.

Had 3 chocolate paddlepops this afternoon, -- bad bad girl


Got out of back of wardrobe a leather jacket ((cream) and some fabulous Italian jeans I once bought in Noosa thinking I would use them as a goal for one of my weight watchers episodes. I still love them and although a size 12 and more of a miracle than a dream, will fantasise about getting in to them again!! (again as in fantasize not that I was once in them!!!)

On the way to the GPs surgery this afternoon, I drove past some of the rivers/canals we have here on the Sunshine Coast and surprised myself (and probably shocked Number one son) when I talked about buying some canoes/kayaks in the future. Talk about fantasies -- right now I'd sink one if I could even get into it!!! However in some strange small way I realised that even though I have been sitting on the sidelines of life for so long watching my children have fun, all hope is not lost that I might want to eventualy join back in -- even thinking about it at the very very very early stages of this journey is surely an achievement.